As mother’s day approaches I think more of my Mom… I miss her so much!
For those of you who do not know me well. My mom was murdered 16 years ago. She had such a giving spirit, and was loved by all who knew her. She was awesome! I often wish God would have given us more time together here on earth and a chance for my daughter to have known her and my son to have known her more, but life is full of diverse challenges and God used her death to bring me life so I PRAISE him for that! God taught me forgiveness though it all. It was not easy (I hated this man so much-I would dream of ways to kill him) it took some time but my God got me through. He showed me my sin and how I was no different that the man (my stepdad) who killed her. “In the eyes of God I was a murder” I realized I needed forgiveness…It was only after I found this amazing forgiveness that I was able to see clearly to forgive. With regret my stepdad passed away in prison and I was never able to tell him of the love of God.
Crazy thing is sometimes even now I struggle with forgiveness. When I need to forgive God has to remind me of his forgiveness in my life and what he has taught me. You think I should not have problems with this after all I forgave the man who killed my mom right? Nope... still struggle and still need my savior to guide me all the way home!
Life lessons may be hard but they sure do stick with you! I thank the Lord for saving me and even though I love and miss my Mom I know it was used all for his glory!
